Sunday, December 7, 2008

Understanding..

Dated: November 2008

Haggard eyes black ,
not so steel anymore
grouchy face, unwelcome lines,
wisdom and pain
Come with time.

no complaints my old lady
its not u but the years that have worn you grey
its not u but the tempest that has made you what you are today
not today not tomorrow but wait for your time in bliss
the colors of sweet release

but remember thy had a life that once lit ablaze
with sunshine, with stars as embellishment of joyous life
with your prime and beauty
that left no souvenirs
no marks no hue
nothing to look at



except for the memories
that make u yearn ...
to go back to the simple moments
that it all began


- dedicated to the old forest wood logger woman i once helped out when i was little.

I am back :)

Dated: September 2008

I am back!! after a reaaally long time :)
A bunch of things have transpired since my last post! All those posts about my inability to find a job, my ignorance reflecting on my choice of food! the negativity ions i spewed out are long gone. But then you realize there is always something to worry about. I made great friends( read as interesting people who don't talk about movies or nail polish colors ALL the bloody time), visited a bunch of places, found a job which made my student pocket reasonably fat(read as 3 meals a day :) without $ -> rupee conversion, occasional treats at Villa Thai and Sher-e-Punjab ). Later, I managed to find an internship, pack up to a far away lonely paradise , sans friends, sans company, sans an avenue to redirect all your unconscious mental navigation).. paradise being that was like living at the Marriott for 3 months with a personal house keeper(software companies do fuel your ego).

And now! I am back ... to my dinghy apartment at 827 E Drachman..with all 3 needs of an average human being laid out in their most negotiable form.
- Kapda (yes!! No complaints , esp with my new Macy's gift card).
No one really cares what you wear to school.
- Makaan (my own little blue bed in my dinghy student apartment).
Still pretty sweet coz the people around make it what it is.
- Roti (or Tortilla :) or bagels or pasta or curd rice ...with mango pickle and lemon , chinese
food!! Yummmm .. )
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.
.
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which is precisely why i put them down as negotiable. With hardly a handful of courses and a job hunt ahead, the last semester is indeed a time to reminisce about the value addition gained as a result of the last year and half.

Well.. one thing is for sure. When I move out, I am gonna miss you School, miss you Tucson.

Google Mom!!

Dated: Jan 07

Mom!!
Bunch of different things thrown into a single body..
Unofficial google search of our house..She can find anything from a lost sock to air tickets missing at the crucial time.. Her efficiency gets a nitroboost if she smells that air of importance that says everyone else is depending on her..and 99% of the time she finds what she is looking for.
That must be the better than the best search algorithms ever implemented in this world and also with a daughter like me blessed with goldfish memory,it does come in handy.

Almost there!!

Dated: Jan2007

Going home? .........
The most dreaded question ever encountered by an indian newbie at US schools..
wherein home is referred to,unconsiously , as a place where people go when they have no jobs.. and lol!! i am currently one of the pathetic lot ,who does not have a part time job to run across ,right after class,pretending to not even have time to pull over your half drawn sweater over your shoulders or stop to say a friendly "hi".

Typical sequence of conversation...

The first day you land..
..er.. Hope u had a good journey.. Were all your suitcases intact..Good Day......

First week..
..hmm.. Are you all settled now? Did u find a room mate yet?.. don worry u l just have to wait till classes start.. u'l find a job soon..

Second week.. 4 days after classes start..
..How are the classes going on?Did you email people asking for part time?

Third week..
Me.. : I have been spamming everyone royally.........
Folks(with jobs who had been through the cycle): Well.. make sure u don send our the same thing..Tailor your email and spam them..;)same technique..

Middle of Third week..(9 days after classes)..
Folks..: Did you find a job..
Me: not yet.. am still looking(LOOKING!!!!! thats a white lie!! a variant version of euphemism.. I have been screwing everyone s mail box ,regardless of their department or connection to what i am..ppl have been scared to check their e-mails for the fear of seeing my seemingly persuasive mail).
Folks..: Its ok.. keep going.. Times will get better..(more fundas like..)..Some one is always looking to hire.. you just need to find who..(snippets and phrases ideal to fit in a "life l get better" documentary)

End of third week..(13 days after classes start)..
I happened to leave class with one of the folks who had a job..and midway down the road..
She: Are you going home?? (with a "poor u" look and voice so full of pity that if i were blessed with one like that,i could have persuaded the dean to give up his job for me)
Me:Yeah.. well.. not exactly.. well going places.. and with my brain trying to pull out random department names from its folds,my mouth rattles out a filtered refined few and combines them into a sentence like this..
Actually,I am going to the medical center for an interview .and then have a meeting with a professor(non existent)..
She:Good luck....
Me: Thanks a ton..(half smiling)..

Whew!! what a relief...
then i run back home, take liberty of using my roomie's laptop and build a new list(probably 7th ) of people who could hire me....

and so on it goes.........................hoping someday in the near future, i will join the band of people who can rush to part time jobs and express pity to a new batch of newbies............

How many people can I look upto ?

There exist few people whose presence composes a significant silhoutte .....


Dad!!!
Think all girls love their dad...Well.. mine s real special... He s the most respectable ,sensible focussed amicable ,primarily adorable ..... (lots more..... beyond d scope of my vocabs) .
Be it temper tantrums of his kids or annoying visitors ... he has a style to tackle it..
A techie genius and a self built management guru (perhaps small scale but reflects at high end) ., with a huge fan following within his professional groups.. , he enjoys life. as it comes..
Hmm..."my daddy s d best "..
The one threshhold i (and guess my sis too) with whom i unconsiously compare all the guys we encounter in our life...

First Note

Posted by: Trivial Encounters
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First Blog
1840000 !!!!!!!!!!! Approx. the total hours i spent on this planet ...Hmmm!!!!!! The first dairy note (or blog) is always difficult...Have i done so many things yet as to pen down a significant number of ones which i can look back with pride.or atleast satisfaction.? I seriously doubt it....But now that i have decided to blog atleast the trivia , there is no looking back........:)This is the beginning.................................................................